I don't know why i am the way that i am. I'm scared that everyone sees me as a sullen child. I'm scared that they can see me and all the things i try to hide. Do you think if I suddenly tried to be a different person, they would notice. Would they be freaked out?
Maybe I just need to ask myself when it became so hard to be a normal person. Maybe the answer would give me some insight. probably not though
I'm scared that you can see right through me
can you?
when i was a child I felt the need to be as loud and noticable as possible. I thought that being the best i could be would save me from my certain fate. I was wrong of course.
I feel helpless most days.